Jumaat…

Semalam hari Jumaat bersamaan 6 Februari 2009. Hari di mana coursework terakhir untuk sem ni perlu dihantar. Alhamdulillah, kali ini, both reports were printed a day before submission. Sesuatu yang membanggakan bagi diri saya yang agak tidak terurus sem ni. For the rest of 5 sems in IMU, all my coursework was done and completed in the last minute. I only can work under the pressure of limited time. That’s when I work efficiently and also ‘killing’ myself at the same time. Hope that I can change this bad behaviour in Strathclyde cause obviously I wanna grad with distinction.

Semalam again there was back-to-back lectures by Prof Brian. Syllabus for the first lecture was Thyroid disease while the second was about the therapeutic uses of glucocorticoids. As usual, the mundane and monotonous lecture by Prof Brian forced many of us who were present in the lecture hall to fall asleep. I found out about this during the way back from time square when anis and zul said that they slept during the lecture. Me, myself was trying to stay awake even the sound of his voice was like a lullaby calling me into sleep.hahaha.. Such an exaggeration. Most of the time i was like in my own world thinking about unhappy things that happen to me this week. I don’t know how to go out from this problematic, idiosynchratic, complicated issue. Bak kata orang, ditelan mati mak, diluah mati bapak. Yeke? Tak tahula betul tak peribahasa tu. Biasela, orang dah lame tak menulis dalam bahasa melayu, macam itulah gayanya. Fikiran saya lebih banyak menerawang cuba mencari jalan keluar, terlalu banyak solutions yang available tapi terlalu tinggi risk untuk kecederaan hati bagi semua jalan penyelesaian yang mampu difikirkan. Biarlah masa yang menentukan, moga Allah menunjukkan jalan kebahagiaan yang tidak akan melukai hati sesiapa. Ataupun biarlah saya sahaja yang terluka, kerana semuanya berpunca daripada kelemahan saya sendiri. Hanya Allah yang mengetahui baik buruk segalanya. Mungkin pada pandangan mata, tilikan minda, rasa hati kita, sesuatu itu baik, tetapi sebenarnya tidak, tetapi mungkin apa yang kita tidak sukai itu lebih baik di sisi Allah, & yang terbaik untuk diri kita. Justeru saya mengajar diri untuk lebih sabar, sabar menanti sinar kebahagiaan yang diredhaiNya. Tiada guna jika kite merasa gembira tetapi Allah murka. Firman Allah di dalam kitab suci Al-Quranul Karim:

“Apa yg ada di sisimu akan lenyap, dan apa yang ada di sisi Allah adalah kekal. Dan Kami pasti akan memberi balasan kepada orang yang sabar dengan pahala yang lebih baik dari apa yang telah mereka kerjakan”

Dikala kelas kedua bermula, saya mendapat pesanan sms daripada my very bestfriend, Praveena. Yup, seorang non-muslim, yang saya sangat percayai, sangat ikhlas dalam persahabatan kami. Telah lami kami bersahabat, sejak di Intec lagi kerana berada di kelas yang sama. Cuma sayang, ketika di IMU, kami jarang dapat berjumpa, bercerita & menghabiskan masa bersama kerana kelas saya yang terlalu pack, menyukarkan sebarang plan hang out or girls nite out to be done with her, a medic student who has more free time due to unpack shedule of classes. Tetapi, bile kami berjumpa, pasti berjam-jam akan dihabiskan just for catching up stories. In the sms Pravee’s said that one of her friend is coming up to IMU to pick up some friends then go to her house. She wanted to see me, so if possible, I can have a ride with her friend. Sms itu menambah serabut kepala yang telah pun serabut dengan masalah lelaki, kerana saya dah pun berjanji dengan anis untuk keluar bersama ke time square & sg. wang. Mujur anis faham, dan saya memberi assurance akan terus sahaja pergi ke time square setelah berjumpa Pravee di rumahnya. I arrived at Pravee’s house with my batchmate, Adelin around 1.30 and then we spending the time chatting, laughing together until around 3.30. I was so sad that she is going to be in Australia next day. Who’s going to listen to my problem, my stupid jokes & stories anymore? These wishes are specially dedicated to my lovely Praveena:

Although we maybe thousands mile apart, but I’m sure you are very close in my heart. The days that we went through together, the tears, sweats and laughter will remind me of how special our friendship is. Hope you will find your soul mate and make sure to rock Melbourne with your beauty brain, outstanding charisma and sweet smile of Praveena.